2 Truths and 1 Lie

Let's Play a game.

I shall tell you two things that are true about me 

and one false thing

guess which one is true, and learn a little bit about me, 

winner gets bragging rights :) 

1. Up until recently I have not wanted kids, but have been taking care of some and deciding i want 3. After 5 years of being married and not until I am 29. 

2. I recently learned what the word Fellatio meant after playing Word Searches on club bing

3. I like collecting stuff with pig on them, actually all farm animals, ie: chickens& cows

Now guess which one is the lie and which is the truth :)*

*This shall also include a silly old picture of me
orange hair, back in the day not good times

me freshman year 2005, I was always odd :)

Mannequins: I Want One

So this thing... something I've always wanted

Before I decided I wanted to fry my brain with knowledge I had wanted to be a fashion designer, but figured it was too much work and engineering would be easier for me. (idk why i thought that). Anyhow, I have always wanted a mannequin.

Why? Why else to make my own clothes

It pisses me off when I go shopping and see a really simple dress that I want and WHOAH! that's more than it is worth. See I know this because my mother used to make all my dresses when I was younger. So that dress that says $50, yea it only takes about $10 in fabric to make.

This might be the reason I am so stingy when it comes to shopping and do not like spending that much on one article of clothing. Accesorries&purses&shoes that is another story, It's more like an investment. If you take care of it, It will last you a long time and make your clothes look more expensive :). Back to the story.

SO YEA, I have made it my goal to design and make some pretty dresses this summer.

Besides making my own clothes the way I want it exactly. I always have a problem finding clothes that fit correctly. God decided to make up what I did not have in bum bum in boobies. Sadly I have also gained those dreaded freshman 15, yes I know very sad RIP Skinny Me. But I always find something I want and cannot seem to be absolutely perfect.

If you want something done right do it yourself.

Thus I shall go fabric/zipper/button shopping soon.

Although I probably won't have a real mannequin until I have about $70-$150 to throw away.

Manage with what you got I guess :)

Summer= Crash Fashion Designer for Moi

Y Joy Valerie

I like your beard

These things Make Me Happy :)

shopping

dresses

Bright Colors

fun accessories

pretty stud earrings

shiny bracelets

silver

white gold

chunky things

boots

chunky heels

high pumps

looking at expensive clothes knowing one day I will afford it

trying new styles

being a little edgy

bohemian things

hippie love

icees

slushies

popsicles

fruitpops [[especially coconut]]

reconnecting with old friends and picking up right where we left off

finding really cute clothes on sale

finding really cute clothes for under twenty dollars [[even better]]

SALES!

being with my love, Bryan Y

bHow webdings has cute icons as letters!

Being in Love

Being able to Love

Loving like I've never been hurt

letting go of grudges

kisses on the forehead

Cuddling in silence

being held

Knowing I have something special

Music I can just jump around and go crazy to

Dancing like a fool

Being a Fool with amazing people

Having nights that will make interesting stories

one day giving life lessons to children with said stories

never repeating some stories that were just to crazy

Taking random trips to nowhere

Ellipticals with built in teevees so I can work out for hours and not even feel it

Learning new random things

Learning how to play new games

Being good at things

when I weigh a pound less

Looking in the mirror and feeling pretty for once

my hair looking just how I want it

not having pimples or yucky scars

children having little/nothing to say

quietness

reading good books

designing clothes I want

being employed/ making money

Having Freedom

when freedom brings tasty liquid things ;)

having fun doing absolutely nothing

watching Greek/90210/Gossip Girl/DropDeadDiva/ Glee/ Bones/ Lost

Staying up at all hours watching aforementioned shows

sleeping until noon in summers

being tan

looking pretty

lounging in pools

the times when I actually had a backyard

the times when I actually lived in a house

New York City

being a child, not caring

when I get an A and don't even try

when GPA did not take over my life

finally reaching Goals

when I have those rare moments where I stop planning my life

but also planning my life and getting what I want

FRIENDSHIP

ps: "I like your beard" is my favorite part of 'your love is my drug' by Ke$ha & the best part

Y Joy Valerie

"Minorities" in Society, SAY WHAT????!?!? RANT

WARNING:::

This started as a post about an RIT Women in Engineering Article and turned into a rant about how minorities and people want to represent themselves and lift up oppression and what not. I think its perspective is basically what I'm saying, I am equal I do not see my self as anything else.

Because I go to to a predominately Tech/Engineering School I forget that not everyone is all sciency/mathy.

Most of my friends through out my life have been girls, and I've always been somewhat girly but a geek at heart.

Now in college I have way more guy friends and have way more guys than girls In my classes. I have never looked at my self as different or beneath anyone else.

I went to Catholic School and High school in the suburbs so basically have always been surrounded by white people. Yet I did not feel the need to associate myself with only Hispanic people, or talk with a "g" accent and dress all miss ghetto fab.

Yes I did not fit in when I lived in the city and was called "white girl", which I did not understand I am TAN PEOPLE, kinda caramely colored.

Our society labels everything as acting "White" &"Black" ect. , where Hispanic people are expected to act all miss.ghettofab & whatnot I am sorry but that is not me.

I'm just fab & broke but I'm not gonna be acting like another stereotype..maybe just joke about it

RANT

Yes I speak like I am an educated person, yes I speak english damn it! Don't try to speak Spanish to me you ignorant non-Hispanic person!

[[Exception roomie Emily but she's not ignorant and actually knows how to speak Spanish, the honorary Hispanic **]]

No, I'm not gonna give you a discount because you tan, I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU!

....And NO I AM NOT DOMINICAN/PUERTO RICAN for the millionth & one time!!!

NO I don't extra money because I am a double minority in my field, I get more financial aid because I is very broke and am attempting to get a quality education regardless!

(parents are pastors nonsense, basically work as nonprofit, do the math)

& NO I am not bad at English/grammar because I am hispanic, I is bad at English because I like math and science, duh!

(also I talk exactly as I speak, I am hearing my voice in my head as I write or vice versa, damn it i confused myself again)

Not gonna lie, I tried to fit in when I lived in Queens, NY had my big hoop earrings and faux diamond name belt when I wasn't wearing my catholic school girl uniform. Moved to suburbs & made my own identitity did not conform to the A&F and Hollister (yea people it looks exactly the same because its UNCREATIVE)

I totally get this whole trying to represent minorities in more fields

I think the problem is not rooted in because "Oh we is minorities" nonsense, People have conformed.

It's like that thing they tell you in psych, minorities will not do as good on standardized test because it is statistic and it is now expected.

We have CONFORMED to societies expectations instead of placing expectations on ourselves and placing Goals for our lives.

STOP giving your fellow minorities a bad name and poor stats, just because statitics say that there are few minorities in college doesn't mean it's OKAY for you not to go.

Goals+Education=Career=Money$=advancing society and economy for the better

Its simple. [[explained in words & math I'm good]]

Back to Original Inspiration

RIT - RIT’s female science, engineering, and math students break stereotypes

Oh yes this is how we do :)....

We are awesome

Especially them ChemE Girls (chemical engineers),

Chemical Engineer Woman we will BLOW YOUR MIND!

(get it Chemicals,reactions, explosion (blow up)hehehehehe, okay not that funny sheesh)

LIES!

Yea we, women, are are brilliant&intelligent and look sexy doing it!

We solve problems & do it in heels, try that boys!

And we birth/raise your damn smelly children & cook your food& tend your house &have careers

Did I mention we know how to multitask

WE ARE NOT BENEATH YOU MEN, we are equal,

NOW CUDDLE WITH US & Tell us how beautiful we are :)

Y Joy Valerie

Chemical Engineer Woman we will BLOW YOUR MIND!

I am a Gecko not Geico

Ahh Childhood, It was a beautiful time where all attention was on me I got all the toys. When I played basketball, dance, choir, karate, guitar, piano, and I'm sure many more and then just quit and my parent's were completely okay with that because I was a spoiled only child.

Then IT came came when I was eight years old. IT seems nice and cute and the idea was beautiful. I thought It would make my life so much better. IT lied and decieved me, IT was my little sister!!!!! (whom we shall we refer to as IT, seems appropriate)

It was hard living in my block all the kids were older than me, althought they liked playing with me and carrying me around until they became teenagers and too preoocupied with those icky things called boyfriend. It was a sad lonely time for me, then on a valentines day my parents told me I was going to have a little sister, yay a new doll for me to play with.

I bought IT the latest baby gap clothes so IT could come into this world stylish. It was lovely waiting. Then as IT finally came, my cousin Doug and I were so excited to finally meet IT.

"Ah how precious" - Family

"EW, what is that, it looks like a white monkey"-Doug

SLAP "That's your baby cousin!" - Aunt

"Gross"-Me&Doug

It was all a lie!!! IT wasn't here to make my life better and be my new toy! IT came to ruin it! Well little miss thing is now ten years old, and oh my goodness! The crying and the pooping and the need to pull on my long curly hair has turned into this never ending speaking frenzy. It is not the BIEBER and such other Disney& Child Stars. This girl has not learned the names the nine, oh I mean eight planets [[ RIP PLUTO ]] but she can tell you which Disney kid is dating which Twilight minion. She does not feel the need to do her homework even though it consists of looking up word definitions, gosh the internet is so difficult to use!.

IT's biggest worry is having the most styling clothes from Aeropastale and Hollister because P.S Aero (the kids Aero) is for little children. Her biggest concern is watching Glee and Lost [[yes shows I watch]]. She talks of boyfriends and shopping. But what irks me the most is this Little things attitudes. We live in the suburbs yet she feels like she is from the hood and does this head twist which makes her look like a bobble head.

As I have mentioned before I am Studying Chemical Engineering. I was not a complete nerd as A child but I did love learning about why things where the way they were and found math to be like a fun puzzle, I still do and love learning new things. Many may have told me I do not "Look" smart. Yes I in fact am like many girls obsessed with clothes and shoes more than technology, I said I like learning not knowing how to code In fact I shock my self when I use the internet for something other than this here blog/facebook/twitter and gazing at clothes online. Actually wait I rarely ever use it for anything other than that, lets act like homework counts.

Because of this is makes me it makes me sad that IT is lacking in the intellectual department. She has no interest when I tell her cool sciency facts but instead finds interest In the clothes and shoes I have bought and watching television. My greatest fear is she becomes a high school drop out and freelance artist. Or wost!, graduate in 4+ years at Rockland Community College.

Hmm, well maybe she will be the Fashion Designer I always wanted to be, but went with a career that guaranteed me a job. Maybe she will be a lucky artist and get her big break, maybe her flute will get her places. Maybe she doesn't need school and education, I would say she would be a Liberal Art major but reading,spelling, knowledge doesn't seem to be her thing.

At least I have hope, my little three year old baby brother, [[that's another story]] He is very smart although he seems to me leaning more towards the evil genius path, but at least there is the Genius path.

No offense to anyone

who is studying/working/going to community college for doing something you love and are talented at. I envy you all because

1. I lack artistic/musical/athletic/any talent at all and must rely on my brain [[which rarely works]]

2. you find joy in doing something you love and are good at that doesn't require extensive years of college/graduate school/ continuous cramming/lab

3. you love something that doesn't involve chemistry & physics. Which I love [[minus physics tests]]but stress me out and require lots of studying and long work.

I'm sure everything else is just as hard or harder that isn't science&engineering but hey I am going to think mine is the hardest just as everyone else does.

PS: My little sister is reffered to Geicko for her striking bodily resemblance to it.

PS2: My sister is actually quite entertaining, talented,smart and very pretty just lazy

About Me

Hello world :)

I have decided to start my own blog so I have an outlet to share my thoughts and vents for the day. I always tried to start a Diary or Journal when I was little and never got past the first page. I am going to try to write this as much as I can.

So a little about me. I grew up in Queens New York and moved up to suburbs for high school, now I am in college at Rochester Institute of Technology studying Chemical Engineering. I am the oldest of five my 10 year old sister, 3 year old brother, and 2 stepsisters. I have an amazing boyfriend Bryan <3>, we've been together for two years since my junior year of high school April 18th 2008.

I am a dreamer, I like to think that things are going to turn out beautiful and many times am struck my real life. I love to shop and which I wasn't so broke so I could shop more. I love bohemian kind of clothes, lots of colors, and unique things. I love accessories. I want to get a job working for a cosmetic company, preferably l'oreal making makeup and such, and a sweet spending money for shopping :). I am a complex creature, as many women, I am friendly, loud and shall express myself, I can be shy and afraid to connect to people, but love being around people. I wish I was artistic, I wanted to be a fashion designer but though Engineering would use my skills better since I tend to be analytical and love math and Chemistry.

My parents are Born Again Christian pastors which in turn I basically spent all of high school in church. I have loved being in college and have really found who I am and learned more about myself and everything about myself. I thank God for everything I am but I feel like the best way to praise God is to enjoy life and make the most of everything that is offered than spend tons of time in church. Maybe my views will change as I get older but for now thats it.

That is a bit about me :)